Friday, March 14, 2014


Day 7 - Praying for MH370 to be found today.
Whether it crashed on land or sea, whether it cruised on for another 4 hours, just let it be found today.
At least there'll be closure for the families of the passengers who're grieving and still waiting everyday. 
The wait must be agonizing, I can't imagine. 

Tuesday, March 4, 2014


Have been thinking lately... what gives humans that drive to move forward, push on, and continue living? 

Life isn't an easy course, unless you're like, I dunno Paris Hilton and super rich and don't have to work a day in your life and your only worry is what you should wear today or whether you look fat. For the rest of us (and most of us) NORMAL people who live regular is bloody tough.

And it doesn't get easier. There are responsibilities and work, work, more work. And there is the pain we go through, whether physical, mental or emotional.

So...why then do humans strive so hard to live through the challenges of each day, working hard to provide for oneself and one's family, fighting diseases and illness, the pain and fear of danger/death, either caused by another human or by natural calamities.

Watched abit of 'The Sound of Music' the other day. Halfway through I started Googling the life of Maria von Trapp née Kutschera (played by Julie Andrews in the movie). 
Did you know, the real Maria von Trapp did not love the Captain at first, unlike in the movie? 

Taken from Wikipedia: 

"Maria was asked to teach one of the seven children of widowed naval commander Georg Johannes von Trapp after his first wife, Agatha (née Whitehead), had died from scarlet fever

Eventually, Maria began to look after the other children, as well. Georg von Trapp, seeing how much she cared about his children, asked Maria to marry him. Frightened, she fled back to Nonnberg Abbey to seek guidance from the Mother Abbess. The Mother Abbess advised Maria that it was God's will that she should marry the Captain; since Maria was taught always to follow God's will, she returned to the family and told the Captain she would marry him.

She later wrote in her autobiography that on her wedding day she was blazing mad, both at God and at her husband, because what she really wanted was to be a nun: "I really and truly was not in love. I liked him but didn't love him. However, I loved the children, so in a way I really married the children. I learned to love him more than I have ever loved before or after."

It set me thinking (some more)... how amazing she was. She really really wanted to be a nun but she couldn't do what she really wanted to do because she had to marry some guy she didn't love. And if you read the entire story of the von Trapp family, the course of their lives together didn't run smooth. 

And I thought, what if she didn't marry him but continued to remain at the monastery? Would she have achieved her dream of becoming a nun? Or not? But if she did not obey God's will and do what she did not want to do, would the von Trapp family have become the famous 'Trapp Family Choir' and the children survived through the hard years? Would the Trapp family be blessed till today, generations upon generations after? 

To be continued later... (perhaps)

Sunday, January 19, 2014

Hebrews & Deuteronomy

The Discipline of God (Hebrews 12:3-17)

For consider Him who endured such hostility from sinners against Himself, lest you become weary and discouraged in your souls. You have not yet resisted to bloodshed, striving against sin. And you have forgotten the exhortation which speaks to you as sons:

"My son, do not despise the chastening of the LORD,
Nor be discouraged when you are rebuked by Him;
For whom the LORD loves He chastens, 
And scourges every son whom He receives."

If you endure chastening, God deals with you as with sons, for what son is there whom a father does not chasten? But if you are without chastening, of which all have become partakers, then you are illegitimate and not sons..........................

v11. Now no chastening seems joyful for the present, but painful; nevertheless, afterward it yields the peaceable fruit of righteousness to those who have been trained by it.

v12. Therefore strengthen the hands which hang down, and the feeble knees, and make straight paths for your feet, so that what is lame may not be dislocated, but rather healed.

January 2014

I entered into 2014 without much fanfare. Not even a view of fireworks this year, unless you count the ones on the reflection off the windshield of the cars parked downstairs from our church. We were in church for the Watchnight service, during the New Year.

Can't believe it's already mid-Jan, and CNY is coming really soon.
I'd planned to post up some photos, memorable events of year 2013...tons of pics in the PC but no time to sort thru and post. 

I need more time which is mine.... :)

This year Helena starts kindergarten, or kindy, as I call it. She has finally sort of adjusted, I think, but has yet to love going to kindy. Everyday she tells me, "mummy, I don't want to go to kindergarten tomorrow/today". Nothing we say can change her mind. I'm hoping time will change her mind.

Friday, January 17, 2014

1 john 4

Friday, January 17, 2014

Ezra 9

Tuesday, January 14, 2014

Lamentations 3

Monday, January 13, 2014

Verse 31-33: For the Lord will not cast off forever. 
Though he causes grief, Yet He will show compassion according to the multitude of His mercies. For He does not afflict willingly nor grieve the children of men.

Thursday, November 28, 2013

One of Those Days

Some days are just really difficult to get through.

Like just sit there and you can't move or get yourself to do anything even though there are tons of things to be done, those kind of days.

One of those days where you wish you didn't have to get out of bed in that morning, that you could've just buried your head under the covers and continue sleeping, and not have to face the day.

Tuesday, November 26, 2013


I would really, really like to do something like this for Helena's room... one day. That was my initial plan, to repaint the second room in December and make it hers. 

One day though... hopefully.


Christmas is coming soon, really soon... but I'm not feeling it though.
No Christmassy mood whatsoever. 

Things didn't work out as planned and my extended leave application got rejected, so I most likely would have to work on Christmas Eve, and on Boxing day too. sigh. 

Sucks that this year's Christmas falls on a Wednesday, therefore day before and after is a working day. December may turn out to be a busy month at work after all. With the boss planning for the company's EGM on Christmas Eve itself.

Lord, please give me the energy to go through December. ZzzZZzzz
People say exercising will make one more energetic, and that I'm lethargic because I do not exercise. I've been exercising at least 2-3 times a week for the past two and a half months, and I feel even more wiped out than before, hahaha. 

'Catching Fire' movie is playing in cinemas now and I'm dying to watch, but this weekend is a no-no. Absolutely packed back-to-back with activities and errands to run. Gosh. Being an adult (with a kid) is...HARD.

What wouldn't I give, for just a day in the life of my former self... one of those days where I was just at home doing my own thing: reading, painting and craftwork, and playing with my bunnies. *dreamzzz*